CN money & suicidal ideation

ETA NO LONGER FUCKED thank you Gods thank you friends —still looking to fund that move though, so still gonna open commissions

so it turns out I'm like $700 worth of fucked

and that doesn't even count how much money I need by mid-August to pull off a cross-country move (which is easily 5x that)

help

(loans are great! talk to me privately! I just don't know when I'll be able to pay them back)

I will set up things like art / jewelry / poem / story commissions and divination trades and possible sale of parts of my personal library and whatnot later

I have a lot of cleaning my apartment to do (because roaches and also apartment complex property manager doing an inspection) and that has to be done before Jun 1, which is also when rent is due

I'm going to call Trans Lifeline if I can get my shit together that far, because the obvious and also because they are supposed to be able to connect us with help

meanwhile

please help