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May. 29th, 2017 06:08 pmThings I hate, an incomplete list:
* when my disabilities take turns such that there are no moments when nothing is bugging me too badly for me to accomplish things
* when I am bored for the sole reason that the things I want to do are not currently within my capabilities
Things I am glad of, an incomplete list:
* Natasha Bedingfield
* Spiral Dance
* Florence + the Machine
* Sara Bareilles
* LeAnn Rimes
* Seanan McGuire
* Kellianna
* SJ Tucker
* Ashagal
* Sharon Knight & T. Thorn Coyle
* when my disabilities take turns such that there are no moments when nothing is bugging me too badly for me to accomplish things
* when I am bored for the sole reason that the things I want to do are not currently within my capabilities
Things I am glad of, an incomplete list:
* Natasha Bedingfield
* Spiral Dance
* Florence + the Machine
* Sara Bareilles
* LeAnn Rimes
* Seanan McGuire
* Kellianna
* SJ Tucker
* Ashagal
* Sharon Knight & T. Thorn Coyle
Irritants and gratitudes, a bulleted list
Jul. 25th, 2016 11:07 pmIrritants:
* hurting hands
* Dragon NaturallySpeaking
* feeling like a flake every time I leave work a couple hours early on sick leave because of hurting hands
* not being able to do much of anything because all the things require hands
* feeling like I haven't earned a movie or a TV episode or a pleasure book, even though I have seventy-odd Habitica gold, and none of those rewards cost more than thirty
Gratitudes:
* air conditioning
* Dragon NaturallySpeaking
* "Serpent Mound" by Kellianna
* "Ancestor Song" by Kellianna
* iced mocha coffee with milk and plenty of sweetener
* purple nail polish
* hurting hands
* Dragon NaturallySpeaking
* feeling like a flake every time I leave work a couple hours early on sick leave because of hurting hands
* not being able to do much of anything because all the things require hands
* feeling like I haven't earned a movie or a TV episode or a pleasure book, even though I have seventy-odd Habitica gold, and none of those rewards cost more than thirty
Gratitudes:
* air conditioning
* Dragon NaturallySpeaking
* "Serpent Mound" by Kellianna
* "Ancestor Song" by Kellianna
* iced mocha coffee with milk and plenty of sweetener
* purple nail polish
Ten good things:
1) friends who are concerned for my well-being
2) got the 3/4 time accommodation from Oregon State University's disability services office at least through fall term
3) Starbucks iced mocha frappucino
4) Yu-Gi-Oh! manga
5) the new dub of Sailor Moon Classic
6) all the lovely comments on my
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7) it's warm out
8) overtime pay
9) nice quiet lunch hour
10) Jo Dee Messina, "Burn"
1) friends who are concerned for my well-being
2) got the 3/4 time accommodation from Oregon State University's disability services office at least through fall term
3) Starbucks iced mocha frappucino
4) Yu-Gi-Oh! manga
5) the new dub of Sailor Moon Classic
6) all the lovely comments on my
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7) it's warm out
8) overtime pay
9) nice quiet lunch hour
10) Jo Dee Messina, "Burn"
1) Florence + the Machine. (Because this is a good things post, I am not discussing the downside here.)
2) "Fresh Cut Herbs" Yankee Candle.
3) I have a windowsill herb garden now! I mean, I don't have a windowsill so the little cedar potted-plant holder is currently sitting on my altar (the instructions say no direct sunlight until there's actual leaves, and this is a devotional exercise anyway, so the altar's the best place for it for now), but I am going to have parsley and chives and cilantro and oregano and I will be able to make BEST pasta sauces. Uh. Once I figure out the magic of spicing the tomato sauce...
4) There's a tree behind D building with lots of white flowers.
5) And several trees by the pool that are blooming in pink.
6) My apartment is slowly-but-steadily getting cleaner.
7) My outline for "Inherit the Flame"'s next draft is a thing that exists. Also a thing that is improving.
8) My friend
D_Libris is moderating a panel at
Mancunicon on "Queering Heroic Fantasy" starting at 8:30 local, so about twenty minutes. Obv I can't be there, but the mere existence of this panel (with my friend moderating!) makes me happy, and gods I hope someone's live-tweeting or something.
9) Oh hey my prescriptions are ready! I'ma go fetch them, and drop off a box of books at the library and grab my held book in the process, and then I will not have to miss a dose of the one pill!
10) SPRING
2) "Fresh Cut Herbs" Yankee Candle.
3) I have a windowsill herb garden now! I mean, I don't have a windowsill so the little cedar potted-plant holder is currently sitting on my altar (the instructions say no direct sunlight until there's actual leaves, and this is a devotional exercise anyway, so the altar's the best place for it for now), but I am going to have parsley and chives and cilantro and oregano and I will be able to make BEST pasta sauces. Uh. Once I figure out the magic of spicing the tomato sauce...
4) There's a tree behind D building with lots of white flowers.
5) And several trees by the pool that are blooming in pink.
6) My apartment is slowly-but-steadily getting cleaner.
7) My outline for "Inherit the Flame"'s next draft is a thing that exists. Also a thing that is improving.
8) My friend
9) Oh hey my prescriptions are ready! I'ma go fetch them, and drop off a box of books at the library and grab my held book in the process, and then I will not have to miss a dose of the one pill!
10) SPRING
1) Oldest sister and brother-in-law offering to hang out with me yesterday so I would be spending time with people who Get It. (Circumstances prohibited, sort of—we did hang out but it was in company of parents, aunt, and cousins—but they offered, and that means a lot.)
2) Middle sister (and semi-random friend of hers) hanging out with me today and only misgendering/deadnaming me maybe twice all afternoon, which I forgive because this is really the first opportunity middle sister has had to use my real name and pronouns because we hardly ever see each other out of earshot of parents. Delightful afternoon.
3) Youngest sister saying she and I can still find ways to communicate even if parents forbid it on the grounds that she's seventeen and I'm a bad influence or wtfever.
4) Clean dishes.
5) Jeans and slacks that fit properly.
6) Yankee Candle's "Fresh-Cut Herbs" scented candle.
7) Rain.
8) Pineapple pizza.
9) Seltzer water.
10) Sara Bareilles, "Brave". Show me how big your brave is—say what you want to say and let the words fall out, honestly, I want to see you be brave
2) Middle sister (and semi-random friend of hers) hanging out with me today and only misgendering/deadnaming me maybe twice all afternoon, which I forgive because this is really the first opportunity middle sister has had to use my real name and pronouns because we hardly ever see each other out of earshot of parents. Delightful afternoon.
3) Youngest sister saying she and I can still find ways to communicate even if parents forbid it on the grounds that she's seventeen and I'm a bad influence or wtfever.
4) Clean dishes.
5) Jeans and slacks that fit properly.
6) Yankee Candle's "Fresh-Cut Herbs" scented candle.
7) Rain.
8) Pineapple pizza.
9) Seltzer water.
10) Sara Bareilles, "Brave". Show me how big your brave is—say what you want to say and let the words fall out, honestly, I want to see you be brave
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Mar. 9th, 2016 11:26 am"Hour of the Wytch", Spiral Dance
There's a feeling in the air as ancient as the standing stones
you hear voices everywhere and you know you're not alone
and you'll go to her in the night as the magick has been spoken
and the claim's been made aha ha the claim's been made
"There Is No Time", Kellianna
There is no time but now
There is no place but here
In the sacred we do stand
In a circle hand in hand
"Light the Fire Within", LeAnn Rimes
Have no fear when darkness falls
'Cause there's a light that shines within us all
All of this world can turn so cold
Then we reach inside and we find our warmth
'Cause there's a flame that burns in every heart
And it's the will we have that lights the spark
"Brave", Sara Bareilles
Innocence
Your history of silence
Won't do you any good
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don't you tell them the truth?
"River Lies", Seanan McGuire
River I’m burning from all the goodbyes
All of the silence, and all of the lies—
All of the madness I’ve seen in her eyes—
All of the choices we tried to disguise—
And I have no faith left in cold River lies.
"I Wish", Jo Dee Messina
I wish you strength
When times are hard
Oh I wish with all my heart you find just what
You're looking for
I wish you joy
I wish you peace
And that every star you see's within your reach
And I wish you still loved me
"Blessings of the Summer Stars", Sharon Knight and T. Thorn Coyle
Weep no more, for the sun is returning
The summer stars will shine once more, my friend
The warming winds will soothe away our sorrows
The wheel turns and brings us home again
There's a feeling in the air as ancient as the standing stones
you hear voices everywhere and you know you're not alone
and you'll go to her in the night as the magick has been spoken
and the claim's been made aha ha the claim's been made
"There Is No Time", Kellianna
There is no time but now
There is no place but here
In the sacred we do stand
In a circle hand in hand
"Light the Fire Within", LeAnn Rimes
Have no fear when darkness falls
'Cause there's a light that shines within us all
All of this world can turn so cold
Then we reach inside and we find our warmth
'Cause there's a flame that burns in every heart
And it's the will we have that lights the spark
"Brave", Sara Bareilles
Innocence
Your history of silence
Won't do you any good
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don't you tell them the truth?
"River Lies", Seanan McGuire
River I’m burning from all the goodbyes
All of the silence, and all of the lies—
All of the madness I’ve seen in her eyes—
All of the choices we tried to disguise—
And I have no faith left in cold River lies.
"I Wish", Jo Dee Messina
I wish you strength
When times are hard
Oh I wish with all my heart you find just what
You're looking for
I wish you joy
I wish you peace
And that every star you see's within your reach
And I wish you still loved me
"Blessings of the Summer Stars", Sharon Knight and T. Thorn Coyle
Weep no more, for the sun is returning
The summer stars will shine once more, my friend
The warming winds will soothe away our sorrows
The wheel turns and brings us home again
ten gratitudes
Dec. 5th, 2015 05:25 pm1) "The Goddess and the Weaver", Spiral Dance
2) the scent of the incense I'm burning as an offering
3) Sailor Moon Classic
4) cool water when thirsty
5) Etsy
6) all the help
madgastronomer has been giving me; thank you
7) being almost done with finals
8) overtime money
9) found a penny (and then won a dollar with it, or maybe two depending on if the prizes stack; Backup Manager S gives scratch-off lottery tickets as Christmas presents, you see)
10) "Christmas Can-Can", Straight No Chaser
2) the scent of the incense I'm burning as an offering
3) Sailor Moon Classic
4) cool water when thirsty
5) Etsy
6) all the help
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7) being almost done with finals
8) overtime money
9) found a penny (and then won a dollar with it, or maybe two depending on if the prizes stack; Backup Manager S gives scratch-off lottery tickets as Christmas presents, you see)
10) "Christmas Can-Can", Straight No Chaser
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Dec. 1st, 2015 09:49 amgratitudes
sleep
rain
blackberry jam
todo
call doctor again about approval for medication refill
week 10 readings
week 10 discussion
week 10 reading questions
revise "Connect the Dots"
Kind Hearted Woman
Kind Hearted Woman extra credit paper
Gods and Mortals
Gods and Mortals review
cook work lunches
crochet hat
cross-stitch ornament
metal-stampy
tada
sleep
rain
blackberry jam
todo
call doctor again about approval for medication refill
week 10 readings
week 10 discussion
week 10 reading questions
revise "Connect the Dots"
Kind Hearted Woman
Kind Hearted Woman extra credit paper
Gods and Mortals
Gods and Mortals review
cook work lunches
crochet hat
cross-stitch ornament
metal-stampy
tada
gratitudes
got that fucking paper in on time
birds on the lake
ivy pot
todo
call doctor again about approval for medication refill
week 10 readings
week 10 discussion
week 10 reading questions
revise "Connect the Dots"
Kind Hearted Woman
Kind Hearted Woman extra credit paper
Gods and Mortals
Gods and Mortals review
cook work lunches
crochet hat
cross-stitch ornament
metal-stampy
tada
nap
sweep kitchen floor
metal-stampy (three UU Principles pendants)
got that fucking paper in on time
birds on the lake
ivy pot
todo
call doctor again about approval for medication refill
week 10 readings
week 10 discussion
week 10 reading questions
revise "Connect the Dots"
Kind Hearted Woman
Kind Hearted Woman extra credit paper
Gods and Mortals
Gods and Mortals review
cook work lunches
crochet hat
cross-stitch ornament
metal-stampy
tada
nap
sweep kitchen floor
metal-stampy (three UU Principles pendants)
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Nov. 29th, 2015 12:35 pmgratitudes
Barq's
chai tea samples in latest Adagio order (nb: not sure I will like chai, but glad they sent the samples)
"I Hope You Dance", Lee Ann Womack
todo
workshop comments
Kind Hearted Woman
Kind Hearted Woman extra credit paper
Gods and Mortals
Gods and Mortals review
cook work lunches
crochet hat
cross-stitch ornament
tada
UU service
assemble vacuum
take out recycling
wash dishes
assemble jewelry display stands
frame art from Pittsburgh Renaissance Faire
figure out menu for week
go shopping
Round House paper
Barq's
chai tea samples in latest Adagio order (nb: not sure I will like chai, but glad they sent the samples)
"I Hope You Dance", Lee Ann Womack
todo
workshop comments
Kind Hearted Woman
Kind Hearted Woman extra credit paper
Gods and Mortals
Gods and Mortals review
cook work lunches
crochet hat
cross-stitch ornament
tada
UU service
assemble vacuum
take out recycling
wash dishes
assemble jewelry display stands
frame art from Pittsburgh Renaissance Faire
figure out menu for week
go shopping
Round House paper
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Nov. 25th, 2015 10:46 amgratitudes
the trees across the lake are all red now and the lake is all blue
Barq's
somebody thought up The Next World Tarot (QPOC depicted throughout, it looks like)
madgastronomer likes my poem
( todo/tada )
the trees across the lake are all red now and the lake is all blue
Barq's
somebody thought up The Next World Tarot (QPOC depicted throughout, it looks like)
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( todo/tada )
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Nov. 24th, 2015 03:59 pmgratitudes
home
frozen Walmart Chinese food
low electric bill
no work today (doctor's note because sick past few days)
feeling pretty nearly fine today
( todo/tada )
home
frozen Walmart Chinese food
low electric bill
no work today (doctor's note because sick past few days)
feeling pretty nearly fine today
( todo/tada )
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Nov. 19th, 2015 11:04 amgratitudes
oh hey my mouth stopped hurting entirely
the surprise and delight of a Facebook friend at my use of a South-ism
local honey
todo
go for a short walk with tunes
fax Bayhealth bill (plus note with name) to ASIFlex
tada
appointment
read at least one reading for women's studies and post to discussion forum
pack
seekingferret's package
pack
kaberett's package
call doctor about running low on this one med, please tell Walgreens the refill (that this bottle says is already approved) is in fact approved, since that's clearly the hold-up (since Walgreens said ready for pickup and then changed its mind)
mail
seekingferret's package and inform him of shipping cost
mail
kaberett's package and inform them of shipping cost
oh hey my mouth stopped hurting entirely
the surprise and delight of a Facebook friend at my use of a South-ism
local honey
todo
go for a short walk with tunes
fax Bayhealth bill (plus note with name) to ASIFlex
tada
appointment
read at least one reading for women's studies and post to discussion forum
pack
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call doctor about running low on this one med, please tell Walgreens the refill (that this bottle says is already approved) is in fact approved, since that's clearly the hold-up (since Walgreens said ready for pickup and then changed its mind)
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Nov. 18th, 2015 01:58 pmgratitudes
sleep
shower
lake
todo
go for a short walk with tunes
read at least one reading for women's studies and post to discussion forum
call doctor about running low on this one med, please tell Walgreens the refill (that this bottle says is already approved) is in fact approved, since that's clearly the hold-up (since Walgreens said ready for pickup and then changed its mind)
pack and mail
seekingferret's package and inform him of shipping cost
pack and mail
kaberett's package and inform them of shipping cost
fax Bayhealth bill (plus note with name) to ASIFlex
tada
self-care
post story to workshop forum (probably ran out extension already though)
sleep
shower
lake
todo
go for a short walk with tunes
read at least one reading for women's studies and post to discussion forum
call doctor about running low on this one med, please tell Walgreens the refill (that this bottle says is already approved) is in fact approved, since that's clearly the hold-up (since Walgreens said ready for pickup and then changed its mind)
pack and mail
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pack and mail
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fax Bayhealth bill (plus note with name) to ASIFlex
tada
self-care
post story to workshop forum (probably ran out extension already though)
twelve good things
Nov. 6th, 2015 11:30 pm* Showers. Start out all icky greasy dirty, spend ten minutes being utterly focused on the here and now and the pleasurable sensation of water on skin, then rinse off with a bowlful of lustral water, and when you get out you're all fresh and clean and waterfall-scented. Seriously this shit's magical.
* Radio Rivendell.
* Seltzer water.
* Kellianna, "Serpent Mound".
* I keep turning into my apartment complex and being struck all over again with the wonder and delight of I live here now.
* I haven't made these Toby Daye 'verse cookies yet (nb: link has v mild spoilers for A Red-Rose Chain), I only found the recipe earlier today, but damn they sound intriguing.
* Gabapentin is also magical. My hands have barely hurt all week—two weeks, really, I've been on the gabapentin for two weeks, but last week I was off work, so last week doesn't count.
* Handmade dichroic-glass-dot earrings. (Handmade as in I made them. Granted this was effort on the order of "glue the Etsy-acquired dots to the ear studs", and not recently, but.) They are sparkly.
* Breathing. Seriously. I need to pay more attention when I'm feeling tired, because it might be a breathing problem that a hit of albuterol inhaler can alleviate!
* That check from my grandparents.
* I found a quarter.
* It is can be sleep tiem nao? IT IS CAN BE SLEEP TIEM NAO!
I feel blessed beyond my power to articulate.
* Radio Rivendell.
* Seltzer water.
* Kellianna, "Serpent Mound".
* I keep turning into my apartment complex and being struck all over again with the wonder and delight of I live here now.
* I haven't made these Toby Daye 'verse cookies yet (nb: link has v mild spoilers for A Red-Rose Chain), I only found the recipe earlier today, but damn they sound intriguing.
* Gabapentin is also magical. My hands have barely hurt all week—two weeks, really, I've been on the gabapentin for two weeks, but last week I was off work, so last week doesn't count.
* Handmade dichroic-glass-dot earrings. (Handmade as in I made them. Granted this was effort on the order of "glue the Etsy-acquired dots to the ear studs", and not recently, but.) They are sparkly.
* Breathing. Seriously. I need to pay more attention when I'm feeling tired, because it might be a breathing problem that a hit of albuterol inhaler can alleviate!
* That check from my grandparents.
* I found a quarter.
* It is can be sleep tiem nao? IT IS CAN BE SLEEP TIEM NAO!
I feel blessed beyond my power to articulate.
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Nov. 2nd, 2015 10:50 amSomebody is running a leafblower and it is noisy and distracting. I need to ground and center but see previous.
Good things:
* Pleasant temperature outside such that I can have my patio doors open. (No, having them closed wouldn't reduce the noise significantly.)
* My dining nook is clean clean CLEAN.
* I did very well (by all reports) at all three performances of An Evening with Poe.
To do:
* WGSS reading questions
* read more of Dwelling on the Threshold
* overtime
Tada:
( growing list )
Good things:
* Pleasant temperature outside such that I can have my patio doors open. (No, having them closed wouldn't reduce the noise significantly.)
* My dining nook is clean clean CLEAN.
* I did very well (by all reports) at all three performances of An Evening with Poe.
To do:
* WGSS reading questions
* read more of Dwelling on the Threshold
* overtime
Tada:
( growing list )
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Oct. 28th, 2015 01:00 pmGood things:
* It's raining gently.
* My Sailor Moon R Blu-rays arrived.
* I am apparently consistently sleeping to eleven again.
Todo:
* WGSS readings
* do the next section of the application for term life insurance
* wash dishes
Tada:
( tada! )
* It's raining gently.
* My Sailor Moon R Blu-rays arrived.
* I am apparently consistently sleeping to eleven again.
Todo:
* WGSS readings
* do the next section of the application for term life insurance
* wash dishes
Tada:
( tada! )
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Oct. 26th, 2015 12:23 pmThree good things:
* I slept till eleven. ELEVEN.
* Chobani Flip salted caramel crunch yogurt is tasty.
* I don't have to go to work AT ALL this week.
Three things to do:
* either find the thing that says what detergent is appropriate for this particular dishwasher or wash the stuff in the dishwasher
* do German work
* tidy desk
Growing tada list:
( tada! )
* I slept till eleven. ELEVEN.
* Chobani Flip salted caramel crunch yogurt is tasty.
* I don't have to go to work AT ALL this week.
Three things to do:
* either find the thing that says what detergent is appropriate for this particular dishwasher or wash the stuff in the dishwasher
* do German work
* tidy desk
Growing tada list:
( tada! )
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Oct. 25th, 2015 10:06 am* It's raining, the soft soothing sort of rain.
* Birdsong.
* It's almost quiet in my head right now. Just sitting here listening to the rain and the birdsong.
But I have things to do. To wit:
* read one of the books I brought to parents'
And so far today I have accomplished:
( tada! )
* Birdsong.
* It's almost quiet in my head right now. Just sitting here listening to the rain and the birdsong.
But I have things to do. To wit:
* read one of the books I brought to parents'
And so far today I have accomplished:
( tada! )