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The fuck happened yesterday? I'm still on the oxycodone, so while I saw a bunch of things on Facebook, I didn't process shit. I think I saw something about Kenya Baghdad terrorist attacks, something about Beirut terrorist attacks, several somethings about Paris terrorist attacks (and the racist and Islamophobic reaction to same), and an earthquake in Japan? Am I missing anything? (ETA: yes, apparently the Kenya link was months old and there were attacks in Baghdad)

My thoughts and prayers go with all these Dead, all the injured, and all their families. And I pray as well that we, collectively, round the world, respond to all this with as little anger, fear, and hostility and as much aid to those suffering as we can muster.

Elani Temperance's "Prayer for Paris", which I extend to include all yesterday's attacks, not just those in Paris:

May Hermes Psychopompos carry the souls of the dead safely cross the river Styx.
May Hades accept them favourably, and may the judges judge them fairly.
May Asklēpiós tend to the wounds of the injured.
May Ares instil in them the passion of life, and the strength of a thousand warriors.
May Hypnos sooth their weary minds, and cloud them in sleep.
May Dionysos calm their terror.
May They offer the same to emergency personnel and passers-by who were witnesses.
May Dikē who weeps at the injustice done upon all touched by this tragedy, clutch the strong thigh of Zeus the All-wise, and beg of Him the severest of punishments.
May All-Mighty Zeus send winged Nemesis to administer swift judgement.
May Her judgement take from the guilty parties an equal or greater price than their victims have had to pay.
May Hēlios the All-seeing whisper truth to law enforcement, and guide the investigation swiftly towards those who conceived and executed this terrible crime.
May wise Athena led Her aid to them.
May Zeus the All-mighty bless those who ran not from the area, but towards it, in an attempt to offer aid to those wounded or dead.
May He look favourably upon those who ran away as well, as the will to live is at the core of every mortal's life.
To all Theoi: a last plea. To protect those whom the media will persecute, but are innocent of the crime.
To protect the innocent scapegoat from the actions of a species in the grips of fear and revenge.

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I am so sick of being zoned out when I want to do things.

Especially since my revised short story is due Sunday for workshopping and I am not done revising yet. And my reading questions are due Monday before work and I have not begun them yet. And I am afraid I am going to be zoned all tomorrow, too. I'm going to switch to ibuprofen in a couple hours when I could take another oxycodone were I planning to do so, but I don't frankly expect that to help enough to keep me from taking another oxycodone a few hours after that...

liveblogging Disney's Lion King

It still bugs me that Disney made a movie with an African setting but no actual African people, most of two decades before they made a movie with a black princess.

( oops actually this got long )

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Know what I am positively dying for right now? Pasta salad. The kind I make with Kraft Zesty Italian dressing (it's gotta be that or it doesn't taste right), shredded cheddar, shredded carrots, and halved cherry tomatoes.

I'm considering bugging Dad to drive me to the grocery store so I can buy more yogurt, and I could buy stuffs for pasta salad then, but probably that's not a real bright idea just yet. The pasta salad part, anyway. I ate all the yogurt, and nearly all the applesauce.

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An hour after taking 800mg ibuprofen instead of another oxycodone: nope, not sufficient to clear the pain. And am still kinda zoning. GAH.

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"Crystal Valentine - "#Feminism" (CUPSI 2015)" (Watch on YouTube)

Accurate poem. Tragically accurate poem.

FEMINISM YOU HAD ONE JOB.

sensory. :(

the dishwasher is running and Dad is washing dishes and owww my ears

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*reads a ficbit*

*realizes after the fact it's not so bitty*

*tries to read classwork assignment*

*words swim on page*

Well that ain't fair. Classwork needs to trump fic!

fuck capitalism. Fuck. Capitalism. FUCK CAPITALISM.

Fuck the devaluing of labor in order to increase profits for the owners of capital. Fuck the devaluing of women's labor that enables men to profit disproportionately from the collective labor of the households these men inhabit. Fuck the devaluing of indigenous lives that enables members of the colonialist race to abscond with these nations' lands. Fuck the devaluing of "un[der]developed" nations' peoples that enables members of the colonialist race to abscond with these nations' resources. Fuck the devaluing of black and brown lives that enables members of the colonialist race to chain these people and cage these people and work these people for a pittance and call it "freedom" because it is not, technically speaking, chattel slavery.

Fuck the devaluing of too-old and too-disabled people that enables younger, more abled people to discard these people as worthless. Fuck the devaluing of too-ill-educated and too-long-unemployed people that enables better-educated people with better employment history to discard these people as worthless. Fuck the disparities in health care access, education access, and employment access that enable certain people to be deemed discardable early on in a manner that ensures they will never again be counted as valuable by the people who matter to capitalism.

Fuck the valuing of correct attribution and ownership of "intellectual property" only when certain people can be said to "own" these ideas. Fuck the theft of knowledge and artistic labor and culture from the peoples who created these things.

Fuck the devaluing of nonconformists of all stripes, especially people who do not conform to their assigned-at-birth gender or the sexual desire required of their assigned-at-birth gender, or who otherwise do not march to the capitalist drum.

Fuck the work hours that do not decrease as productivity increases. Fuck the wages that do not increase as productivity increases.

Fuck the dietary changes inflicted on nations by the rise of monocultures and cheap sweeteners. Fuck the loss of local cuisines inflicted by the rise of worldwide fast food chains. Fuck the waste of food that doesn't look pretty on the supermarket shelf when people are going hungry.

Fuck the monetization of culture. Fuck the capitalization of conservation. Fuck the mass production of every fucking thing.

Fuck the dwindling of the knowledge of how to do things without mass production, of how to survive without relying on the free market, of how to make a living without making a profit for one's employer. Fuck the need to have an employer, or be one, in order to survive.

Fuck the constant diversion of attention into consumerism. Fuck the insistence that More Stuff means More Happy. Fuck capitalism-compatible McSpirituality and capitalism-friendly McActivism.

Fuck capitalism. Just. Fuck capitalism.

And most especially, fuck the way we're all caught in it with no way out!